The Gift of the 'I AM': The Story (Part 1)

The following is Part 1 of a 3-part series. In Part 2 I share new insights and wisdom on the power of the process, and in Part 3 I give you a more detailed explanation of how best to work with the book and images to get the most out of them. 

It’s been nearly a year that I launched the ’I AM’ book.

And what a ride it’s been: at times exhilarating, at times frustrating, at times exciting, at times confusing. At times I've doubted it, wanted to let it all go. Other times I’ve felt completely re-inspired and re-energised.

The London launch

The London launch

I remember the moment I first put it out into the world, during the first book launch in Chania. Standing there in front of a beautiful crowd of friends and acquaintances, my entire body buzzing with a massive rush of energy, unlike anything I had ever experienced before. I felt myself one with the entire space, expanded far beyond my physical vessel. It was a surreal experience that will stay with me for the rest of my life. 

I knew in my heart that something special had been birthed through me, yet I didn’t yet comprehend or even begin to understand its true power and potential.

The following book presentation in Athens was a very different experience: surrounded by my Core Energetics community, I felt centred, present and connected. I spoke about the book with certainty and a deep sense of knowing.

It wasn’t until a few weeks later, during the London event, that fears began to kick in. 

I freaked out

Something inside me panicked, and I found myself speaking nonsense, trying to prove the concept, to prove that I wasn’t crazy.

In hindsight, that was the moment that I kind of freaked out. The act of standing up in front of an audience and sharing this work triggered ancient fears of humiliation and rejection for thinking outside the box, for taking up space, for sharing my heart.

Deep down, I was afraid that I couldn’t hold the true power of the book. I had a real sense that this was something magical, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on what it was.

And so I kept it small. For the following few months, I kept the I AM under lock, only sharing it when I felt I was safe. I sold a few copies, mostly to friends and family. I listened to people sharing their experience with the book, what had moved them inside. But still, something told me there was a lot more to it. What exactly however, I wasn’t sure. 

I invited people to work with the book, and yet I didn’t do so myself. Until something happened that would change it all....

The Gene Keys

It was one of those random moments when something on Facebook triggered a whole sequence of events, eventually leading me to discover and purchase the Gene Keys, an incredible book by Richard Rudd.

As I read the introduction, a lightbulb went off inside me: goosebumps appeared on my entire body as a flash of inner knowing struck me and I finally glimpsed, through the words of the book, how the I AM truly works. 

I had a vague sense of this before, but to hear it so clearly explained in a different context was a true gift. I  began to work with the I AM and my own imagery… something I had until then resisted myself.  And I began to invite others to do the same, curious to hear the results of their own journey and experiment.

Only now am I truly understanding the power and magic that this book contains. After nearly 10 months of ups and downs, I am returning to it, ready to give it up, let it loose into the world, and to let it work its magic. And I’m super excited to be sharing this with you.

Continue to Part 2 below.